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I am not a good patient. I'm cranky, irritable, whiny and needy.

but mostly just frustrated that i can't take care of my own home and family. I can't put any weight on my foot and I'm horribly awkward and unstable on crutches. So I spend the day laying around in my bed, cuddling the baby while someone else takes care of us. Daddy, Grandma, Grammy and my aunt have been wonderful, taking turns to spend the time with us. My big girls think it's a nonstop party and are having a blast. Instead of just being stuck with me, they get to have some of their favorite people to play with all day.

The first few days were the worst. Somehow the nerves in my foot ended up bruised and irritated from the surgery so I was taking as much pain medication as I could. It made my head so fuzzy that I couldn't even think straight. But I'm doing much better now (after having done a cortisone injection) and am doing great on very little medication which means now I can even nurse the baby again. I'm still cranky that I can't take care of myself but we're doing okay. It's frustrating to me that I can't even refill my own water and I can't pick up the clutter around the house. Instead, my wonderful caretakers are helping out and doing an amazing job of taking care of my children, my home and putting up with my neediness.